A few days from now, it'd be Christmas once again. Yes, and one good evidence would be dragging myself out of bed every morning because it feels oh-so-good sleeping under a warm sheet of freshly laundered flannel blanket.

Ever since I was a kid, Christmas has been one of my favorite holidays of the year. I would be receiving gifts from my ninongs and ninangs and I love wearing new clothes for my Christmas party. I would wait for that special day when me and my family would eat a lot of tasty treats. This year, I guess would be a lot different. A few days from now, my dearest niece would be celebrating her very first Christmas. And instead of me waiting for gifts to open, it is her time to open her first Christmas gifts! I am so excited to buy her (Sofia) a gift for Christmas. This year, instead of having Christmas at home, my parents decided to celebrate it with the newest member of our family. The cutest baby of all! I hope this Christmas will be a happy one for her to remember. Even happier than the Christmas days that I have experienced and spent with my family.

"Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus!" Yes, it is the ever famous book on knowing the opposite sex. A co-teacher of mine shared me this book that I have been longing to read. Since classes got suspended today, I got a chance to read a few chapters. One of which that I have read is about men being compared to a rubberband. I have been through many relationships already (before Gian and before we got back together) and it was only now that I have realized my faults (or mistake or whatever you may call it) in those relationships including my relationship with Gian right now. It is not that I worship the book or something. I just realized that, "hey, this makes sense!" I remember keeping a boxfull of rubberbands fo my hair. If you keep them so long and won't even use it, it will just break even using them for the first time. But when you use it more often, it gets a time to stretch and serve it's purpose for a longer period of time. Like rubberbands, men needs to stretch from time to time because if they don't, they might become brittle and break. In short, when men try to pull away, we need not stop them. Because they just need some space to stretch and them come back again. Stopping them would just cause bigger problems.

Maybe, even women are like rubberbands. We all need space sometimes, don't we?

I am super sad right now. I wanted to cry but I can't. I feel really bad. I hope I could get over this feeling by tomorrow. I feel really terrible. Can't breathe. :(

It has been quite a while since my last post. Well, I was busy ( and still busy ) checking my students' output and adjusting to my 'new' workplace.

I still ask myself sometimes if I really made the right decision of resigning at HEDCEN and start teaching at poveda. I still have the 'what ifs' on my mind. What if I stayed? What if I come back? Would it make any difference? Would I be able to fulfill my dreams in life? I loved it there; I miss my dear students, I miss my "friends", I miss the times we would laugh our hearts out because of Sir Ramil's jokes after a day of very tiring work. I miss soccer, I miss the dorm. I miss everything that I have experienced there! But then, I have made this decision and there's no turning back. I know there are a lot of improvement after my exit from the company; promising salary, a more comfy feel in the teacher's area and so many other things that i have missed. I still ask myself "What if...?" but then there's this happy feeling inside of me knowing that I still am very lucky to have landed where I am right now. A new experience, a new journey!

Now, what if I did not resign at all? Maybe, I will not feel how blessed I am to still have a job. Also, If I did not resign, maybe I will not know who really cares. :D

Yup! It's true! We have finally decided and informed our parents about it. At first I was a bit hesitant to tell my parents and family about it but then suddenly it was my mom who broke the silence. I am so excited planning for our big day. We already have tried searching for some suppliers. Browsed through magazines and even tried wedding bands as early as now. Papa even gave some suggestions on where to have the reception. I can't wait until it's 2009 already!

It has been 12 days after I resigned from work. Twelve days of very long sleep and non-stop food tripping. But then I could not stay this way forever! But God really knows what to do and when to do it. I have been through a lot of job-hunting stress even before my resignation took effect. If I remember it right I started looking for a new job as early as November. I tried applying for both public and private institutions. Some tried to hire me but I turned it down because they were asking me to resign from work right then and there which of course I could not do since I am bound by a contract. I really wanted that job but I think God really has his own plans.

To cut the story short, I was left with only one school to hope for. A school which I have dreamt of ever since I started taking up education. This morning, I received a call and told me that I have an appointment with the school's president for the job offer! I am so excited! Thank you Lord! :D

*resigning from work wasn't that bad after all! (but I still miss my old school, God bless them too!)